I Want to Do ALL the Things

I took this a few months ago while on break at work. Turned out surprisingly well being that it is from my phone's front face 1 megapixel lens.

So I've been working on this project (don't hold your breath), and it's kind of put me in a strange state of mind. It has to do with reincarnation, sort of, only you can remember your past life. Really it's just a fantasy with the idea that you will be able to do everything you want to do. Because this life is so very short.

I was thinking to myself that there are so many things I want to do and lives I want to live, and I just won't be able to do all of them. Perhaps this is why I'm so indecisive. I want to go through the Marine Corps training, and serve in the Army as a linguist, and be a part of a shooter/spotter team. I want to be a policeman and a fireman. I was to become a transplant surgeon, neurologist, virologist, oncologist. I want to write for a newspaper, work for a publishing company, write novels, teach English to kids, teens, adults, and ESL students. I want to study chemistry, biology, physics. I want to live in England, Korea, France, Germany, Russia. I want to walk, rune, bike, and drive every acre of land and road on this Earth. I want to sail every ocean and traverse every pond, lake, and river. Alas... I have but one life to live.

I don't believe I will die and then wake up to a new body with new memories and a new set of choices to make. I believe that this is my one shot, and I've got to make the best choices now. I have to decide what will make me the happiest, because in the end that's all that truly matters.

"Francois Rabelais. He was a poet. And his last words were 'I go to seek a Great Perhaps.' That's why I'm going. So I don't have to wait until I die to start seeking a Great Perhaps." ~ John Green, Looking for Alaska.

I'm still searching. Maybe one day I'll find what I'm looking for. Or maybe I'll die, and hopefully do so knowing that I've enjoyed my life as a pursuit of who I am in this world where perspective is the only thing of importance.